Are You Flying Higher Than Your Consciousness Allows?

I am continually amazed at how everything is working towards Consciousness.  As a Kriya Yoga disciple, I am committed to full Self/God Realization.  I would like it to be this lifetime too but am not attached. Over the last 5 months, I have experienced some really painful relationship karma. One minute I'd be high as a kite, flying through life like never before and then, in an instant I'd fly smack dab into a mountain.  The message I got in my morning meditation is helping me to understand this in a much more simple, yet joyous way.

Imagine that we are like a butterfly that goes through many stages until our wings are fully developed and we reach "Butterfly Enlightenment". At this point we would be able to fly anywhere available with ease, peace and joy.  Now what if you are a butterfly, like myself, that is always exploring higher possibilities?  If we fly higher than our wings can handle, someone or some experience will painfully put us back down to our level of consciousness.  At this point we can either stay down, which would have the symptoms of blame, resentment, victim, attack and making the other person or situation wrong. Or, we can return to the cocoon, feel the pain fully, forgive everything involved and see where the pain is leading us. If we do that, we will grow stronger, more conscious wings and be able to fly higher than before.

I am so grateful to the people and experiences that have inspired me, often through force and pain, to go back into the cocoon of higher consciousness so I can continue to become a more powerful butterfly.  I often curse you at first because it hurts, but it has become abundantly clear what a gift you are to me and humanity.

How I Changed My Destiny

In the movie...The Adjustment Bureau, Matt Damon was able to change his destiny.  This brought up many questions for Angelina and me regarding Destiny, Fate and what can be changed and what cannot.  Then I got this in my inbox.

 

Today's Daily Kabbalah from Karen Berg......

Changing Destiny
Monday June 30, 2014
 

"It is said that there are three ways we can change something that is destined to happen to us. One is with prayer, the second is by giving charity, and the third is by changing our ways. The most powerful is the last. There are destinies we can undo when we make the effort to sincerely transform our negative attributes."

It appears that some destinies are unchangeable and some are not. I believe that I was destined to fail at romantic partnership as a result of addiction. I believe that I was destined to have a heart attack by my 53rd birthday.  I believe I was destined to feel small around my surrogate mother. All of these have been changed. By the Grace of God and lots of prayer, meditation, discipline and compassion for myself and others, I have managed to allow conscious committed romantic partnership to flourish in my life while simultaneously conquering my addictions. I also managed to divert a heart attack through changing my diet, adding supplements, taking a pharmaceutical and keeping my emotional heart open. In addition, I no longer feel small relative to my Sacred Villain who I now know was actually a part of The Universe's Conspiracy Upon My Behalf.
There is much more I have to learn and heal but that's just a few ways I believe I have changed my destiny. Then again, all of that may have been destined too. The Universe is a tricky One. LOL