Today I found myself wanting to get away from my house. This happens quite often and it's one of the things that motivates me to do outdoor yoga, exercise, 12-step meetings and tennis. Today I got some awareness during yoga as to the main reason this occurs. Sometimes, my home represents all the things that I have to do and the story I've made up about how far behind I am in getting them done. "You Never Get It Done"......I've heard this in the past as well as "There's Always More To Do" and each time I hear it, I feel more at ease. These phrases help me realize that I am the one who puts the deadlines for my achievements upon me. So what if I don't get everything done in the time frame I set forth. Life is messy sometimes. I am finding more and more the desire to do things that increase the positive chemicals in my brain and quite often it takes me away from work and organizational things. I still get everything done that I need. "It's more important to FEEL and BE than it is to DO".....yogi armandananda
When I can let go of the rigid demands I put upon myself about time frames, etc., I will start to see all the projects, organizing, work materials and bookings as "works in progress" that are an indication that I am evolving and active. Then I will feel less eager to get away from my home. I still plan to do my outdoor practices and play but will be going towards them instead of away from my perceived burdens of responsibility.
