This morning, while meditating and listening to a new Holosync Level 3, seven people came into my awareness. It was like a life review of sorts. Over the course of the last 3 years, Angelina and I have parted ways with all 7 of these beings. It started with my surrogate mother and has included two couples and 2 singles. In each case, there was drama, hurt feelings, judgment, unconscious behavior and eventual increased freedom and peace. Still, even with the awareness that in each case, there was a vibrational mismatch, there has been an underlying nagging of..."I wish I had been able to be more conscious and loving. I wish I could've done more". Angelina calls this....Schindler's Dilemma. One of the symptoms of the inner nagging is that I have been "checking out" women lately, as well as objectifying them in ways that I believe is disrespectful to them and my sobriety.
Today I was flooded with Peace. The message I got was "none of the vibrational mismatch, drama, unconsciousness, hurt feelings, judgment, etc. has anything to do with who you or they really are. These are just the characters that your souls have chosen in order for each of you to expand your consciousness. The reason this has been so hard on you lately is because a part of you has forgotten who you really are and has gotten caught up in the Matrix. You forgot that all of this played out just the way it was supposed to AND this has no more significance than any other movie you may watch. Sure you will learn and grow from it, just like you may learn and grow from watching any other movie, but you need not believe that the movie is real or that your or any other character should have played their part any differently."
I really needed to hear and experience this now because so much of my old wounding has come to the surface to be released and forgiven and this feels like a Cosmic Garbage Truck has shown up to transmute it for me. On another positive note, several of our relationships have grown in intimacy and connection. We have gotten much closer to two couples that we've known for over a decade, as well as our Godchild and another dear friend of mine that I communicate with on a regular basis. We have also gotten much more connected to my older sister Star who has become such an important part of our lives. Wow, I just realized that is 7 people. Can you say...."God is Balance?"
Anyone else relate to this? As always, your feedback and guidance is welcome.
