Surrendering To The Goddess.....Again!

Today we got a call from America's Got Talent inviting us to be a part of the 2011 Finale Show as an AGT All Star. At first I was so excited since it felt like an opportunity to "get back on the horse" with an appreciative audience, no Xs, over 100 million viewers and a trip to Hollywood.  Then I presented it to my bride Angelina and she immediately said "No F'ing Way".  I was really disappointed since I am a born entertainer and this would be the most exciting, big time opportunity to share our talents ever.  She then went on to remind me that AGT portrayed us in a very unfavorable light in June. Then she reminded me that our audition in July was never aired even though we spent $1000. on the costumes and went through "hell" during Vegas Week. I still argued for going. Then she reminded me that they are only inviting us to go back because the audience and judges had such an unfavorable response to us.  Then I found my mind starting to have second thoughts.  Then she reminded me that I had facebooked that I no longer, in clear conscious, could support a show where the judges displayed such obvious disrespect for each other and had very little compassion for the talent. (amazing how quickly I forgot that when they dangled the carrot) I'm not judging the show any more than I would judge a cigarette company. Still, I would not endorse either. My body and mind were a mess.  So much confusion for me and still, Angelina was very clear.  Absolutely Not! 

One thing I've noticed over the last 10 plus years, whenever Angelina and I are in disagreement, she is usually more intuitive, wise and discerning.  She's the one that convinced me to become monogamous in 2007. (one of the best decisions I ever made)  So, not only do I surrender to her, I believe in my heart that this is the wisest thing for us to do since we truly want to put this whole AGT nightmare behind us. That being said, I wouldn't do anything different because I have grown more spiritually from this than almost any other single event of my life. I also discovered a whole new religion that has trumped all other spiritual teachings as far as how much peace of mind I now have. So I called AGT back and told them thanks, but no thanks.  I've been a bit depressed all day but I'm coming out of it now.  We still have no full time work but I don't mind.  At one point she was crying because she so didn't want to go to Hollywood, and I was crying because I so did. lol  As Howie said to us when they eliminated us in Vegas..."we're sending you home but you still have each other"....Amen Howie, I'd choose what I have with Angelina over any amount of fame, money, women, independence or control. 

When offered the drug of fame, sometimes you gotta  JUST SAY NO!!!